You know, when you start doing things differently, it takes a while to get the hang of the new version. The new version has to do battle with the old version in a sense.
This applies to EVERYTHING in your life.
Maybe it was something that you never thought you could do, something you never thought possible.
However, when such a grand, auspicious, life-changing, miraculous event occurs the first thing that happens is that you sort of stand back and look at yourself in awe. You're beside yourself and are observing your life in shock. Almost as if to say to yourself, 'Oh my God! I'm doing this! yes! wow! It's happening to me! 'Lil old me! I'm doing it!'
And then just as you're getting the hang of it, your brain messes you up, it tells you 'No, no, no, you're not ready to get to this stage, get back to where you were before. RETREAT! Are you crazy? What were you thinking?'
Thus, while you're in the middle of this new phase-shift, you STOP.
You stop in mid-sentence, you stop in the middle of the sight-reading section (music exams here), you stop in the middle of the football game. And you make a fine mess of what you were doing, which was getting busy going with the flow, until your 'brain' got in the way.
Now you have to do damage control for the mess that your brain just created.
If you could just get your brain to not START.STOP.FREAK OUT.PAUSE, then life would just be peachy. If the brain could just shut off for a minute and let the limbs do the thinking, then all would end well.
But no, alas, the brain makes its' own rules and will not listen to you, after all, you're not in charge of your brain. Are you?
Learning to shut off my brain when my limbs are pushing the envelope will be my next big challenge.
But for now, the old brain is having its' way.
This applies to EVERYTHING in your life.
Maybe it was something that you never thought you could do, something you never thought possible.
However, when such a grand, auspicious, life-changing, miraculous event occurs the first thing that happens is that you sort of stand back and look at yourself in awe. You're beside yourself and are observing your life in shock. Almost as if to say to yourself, 'Oh my God! I'm doing this! yes! wow! It's happening to me! 'Lil old me! I'm doing it!'
And then just as you're getting the hang of it, your brain messes you up, it tells you 'No, no, no, you're not ready to get to this stage, get back to where you were before. RETREAT! Are you crazy? What were you thinking?'
Thus, while you're in the middle of this new phase-shift, you STOP.
You stop in mid-sentence, you stop in the middle of the sight-reading section (music exams here), you stop in the middle of the football game. And you make a fine mess of what you were doing, which was getting busy going with the flow, until your 'brain' got in the way.
Now you have to do damage control for the mess that your brain just created.
If you could just get your brain to not START.STOP.FREAK OUT.PAUSE, then life would just be peachy. If the brain could just shut off for a minute and let the limbs do the thinking, then all would end well.
But no, alas, the brain makes its' own rules and will not listen to you, after all, you're not in charge of your brain. Are you?
Learning to shut off my brain when my limbs are pushing the envelope will be my next big challenge.
But for now, the old brain is having its' way.
Maybe try to figure out what the trigger is. I mean, what causes the doubt or fear or insecurity? Try to understand the place that it's coming from and tell yourself that it's from a place way in the past. You're older, wiser, more skilled and experienced since way back then when the fear or doubt first caused a reaction. Now you KNOW you can accomplish what you want to do. Push the envelope, safe in the knowledge that the initial event that caused the fear and doubt in the first place happened a long long time ago. You are different now.
ReplyDeleteJust my two cents.
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